I messed up. Big time. You ever make a bad choice and then continually berate yourself, questioning why, why, why would you do that? How could you be so stupid, thoughtless, lazy, inconsiderate, or whichever appropriate adjective fits the situation?
That was me. I was supposed to handle a financial situation. Even got a reminder in email to do it, which I ignored.
And then life happened. And I needed the financial protection that would have come with following through on completing that critical task. But since I neglected to handle my business, I was facing a major financial dilemma.
If only, if only, if only…. I allowed regret to eat away at me. If I could just turn back the hands of time. But I couldn’t. I had to face the dilemma that I created head on.
And I had to come back to this blog for reminders – taking my attention off my problem and fighting it spiritually. I was losing the mental fight big time as I kept alternating between feeling sorry for myself and being mad at myself. I was snapping at my family and was just an all-around unpleasant person to be around.
I reminded myself to take every thought captive…
I reminded myself to cast down arguments (blocking those shots!)
I reminded myself that I wasn’t supposed to worry or be anxious about anything.
But then more financial obligations started coming on top of the one I was already facing. I thought, “Really God”? Is this my new test? All spiritual warfare is hard, but in the area of finances is especially difficult. There is so much opportunity for worry, that you can really work yourself up before you even know what’s going on.
When I thought about all that I was facing, I didn’t even have a specific request for God – I just wanted Him to take care of it. I remembered the promise of today’s Play Prediction – God WILL supply all my need according to his riches in glory through Jesus.
I didn’t care about the specifics of how He was going to do it, and my response to every negative thought that popped up in my mind was – God WILL provide. I have repeated it countless times, and I truly believe that He will.
So now I’m hunkering down, steady in my position of Faith, and not allowing the facts around me to sway what I believe. I know God will provide for us and take care of us. So, I will not lose another minute of sleep, I will no longer allow my financial circumstances to make me an irritable person to be around.
I will behave like who I truly am, a daughter of the Most High God and King, who has a limitless source of supply for me. And I will forgive myself for being human and making a mistake. And then I will wait on God to come through like only He can!
Have you ever made a mistake that you thought would negatively impact your future? How did you handle it? Were you able to forgive yourself?
In spite of any mistakes we’ve made in our past, do you believe that Romans 8:28 is true, and that God will still cause it to work together for your good, no matter how bad it may look right now?
Feel free to share your response in the comments section…