Here we are, the beginning of a New Year. New Season. New Possibilities. New Hope.
I was going through my file of medical receipts from 2018. As I grabbed the bulging envelope, my mind went back to January.
We started off 2018 doing a Family Vision Board, the year full of excitement and promise. We had Preashea Hilliard playing in the car as we sang, “I’m Expecting Great Things” on repeat whenever we traveled. We were ready for our Amazing Year.
A Facebook memory in December reminded me that the girls were filled with the indwelling of the Holy Spirit just over a year ago. I remember being so full of expectation and joy for what God was going to do in their lives in the New Year.
- Kennedi experienced a concussion in January after an errant ball hit her in volleyball practice, resulting in painful and debilitating headaches.
- Upon getting cleared in March and returning to her team, a careless mistake on her part led to another injury, resulting in bursitis.
- In March, track season also started for Kassadi, and complaints of pain in her heels resulted in a Sever’s Disease diagnosis.
- In April, Kennedi was finally able to start track, but a case of Croup sidelined her a bit longer.
- May brought on the more common pain of shin splints. New running shoes and inserts helped to alleviate Kennedi’s discomfort.
With every sickness and injury, I would continue to pray and declare over them, trust God and (try to) not worry. And believed that when God healed them, they were even better than before. He created them, formed every bone and delicately intertwined them between their muscles, tendons and ligaments. Every organ. Every vein. Every vessel. He monitored them closely. He knew everything about their wonderfully created bodies and He cared about their health and well-being even more than me.
By June we seemed to be in the clear – school was out, the weather was beautiful, both girls were thriving, and it looked like we had gotten through the worst of the year. We were ready and focused on the next level of competition and qualifiers for Jr. Olympics.
And then July 12th happened. Thinking about it even now still takes my breath away in momentary disbelief. But then I remind myself that God is the potter and my daughter is His clay. I continuously imagine Him lovingly repairing and re-creating her knee ligament. This is my Hope in Him, and of Him.
I read a wonderful quote on Facebook that has stayed with me:
“Unlike the English word “hope”, the New Testament word contains no uncertainty; it speaks of something that is certain, but yet not realized…Without the clear and certain promises of the Word of God, the believer would have no basis for hope”. The MacArthur Study Bible
Luke’s Light, Facebook
This quote made me think about the way I was using the word ‘hope’. I’d been using it in the context of merely wishing something would happen.
In 2019, I am replacing the word ‘hope’ with ‘expect’. I have a clear and certain promise in Isaiah 53:5 that by Jesus’ stripes, Kennedi is already healed. Today’s Play Prediction assures me that because of God’s love for me, my expectation won’t result in being disappointed.
Let’s be clear – this doesn’t mean everything is going to work out exactly how I hope and dream it will. But it does mean that when I truly understand the magnitude of God’s love for me, that I will not be disappointed when His plan unfolds.
My hope is now anchored because I know and anticipate that healing is promised to her. Do I know when? No, and that can make hoping/expecting a little tough.
But knowing it will happen, I still have the peace we discussed last week. I will wake up every day in 2019, with anticipation and expectation for what God has planned for my family.
And at bedtime when I rest my head on the pillow, I will reflect on the day He blessed me with, how He moved in our lives, and what I’ve learned to take into the next day.
What a journey 2019 will be! I’m almost overcome just thinking about it. And… we’re still expecting Great Things.
What are you hoping for in 2019? Can you replace the word ‘hope’ with ‘expect’ and truly believe it?
What would it take for you to have full expectation that God is going to answer your prayers according to His plan for your life?
Do you believe enough in His love to trust His plan?
Feel free to share your response in the comments section…